sorry bel! i just has to steal the picture from you cuz yall look so cute dre.!
appearently, only one of the parts were meant for you guys.
don't worry honeys. you guys were never mean towards me.
and even if you were mean, it was only for fun!
yes. i did not want to join you guys because of you know what.
so i dont blame you.
i know you guys were not in the position to tell me about their relationship;
but don't you think telling me would be a better idea than keeping it from me?
i know that you guys wanted to protect me and not see me sad, but if i found it out by myself and if i find out that you guys knew it and you kept it from me; how'd you think i'd feel?
to tell you the truth; learning about their relationship made me sad; but learning that you guys kept it from me made me sadder.
darlings;
honestly, i already knew that they were together. because of every thing that was happening around me. i could sense something was going on.
i never said that Stef could never have another girlfriend after we broke up.
but if someone told you to give him time to think. naturally you'd give him time to think.
but when you find out he has another girlfriend. naturally you'd go insane.
i know its their life but whatever. Stef could have told me first. maybe he didnt want to hurt me again. or maybe he was just too afraid too. but whatever.
and you know why i wouldn't want to join you so yea.
its alright.
its because of our failed relationship that everythings mess up. and i'm sorry.
i didnt mean to not tell you. but even if i told you what difference would it make? you guys don't know what im going through. you'll just tell me he's a stupid boy and just forget him. for your information. it doesn't actualy make me feel any better. it makes me feel much much worse.
i dont mind if you guys hang out with Stef and the rest. i really don't. because i still have other friends that got my back. of course you guys are my best friends, its just that Dom, Chels, Les, Crist and Don understand me better. ok. so maybe not Don but they rest know what im going through because they've all felt it before. Don doesn't know for nuts! i didn't tell him cuz i didnt want him to know anything. cuz he knows that if he wants to know, all he has to do is ask. so yea.
don't worry girls, you guys are and will always be my best friends. no matter what. its just that we've drifted a bit too far duncha think. we're all leading our own different lives. having our own problems and all. so yea. but don't worry. i love you still. very very much. and no, i do not hold any grudge against you guys. i love you too much to. i guess we're all changing just a bit too much.
and its ok for choosing to hang out with Stef and the rest rather than with me. i know Mel has to! ( which might i say congrats once again!) and bel, i'm fine with you hanging out with then too! (: wont be hanging out with you guys for various reasons. i hope you'll understand. but hopefully by christmas. we'll all be one big happy family once again.oh and yea. so i've heard. any idea why they broke up?
to bel and mel,
i love you and i always will.
and there's no where in the world i'd rather be;
than here in my room, dreaming about you and me
With Love ;
5:42 PM
♥debs